Or, not.. I hate this day. Always have. Mostly I hate the expectations that come with it. I hate that all the beautiful stuff I have done for the man I love was never reciprocated. I believe I once got a box of chocolate tossed to me across the room as he walked in the door after work. Or maybe that was Mother's Day.. I don't remember. Heck, could have even been a birthday. Once or twice he bought me truffles, knowing that they were my favorite. He then proceeded to eat them so I would get fat, and complain if I ate too many. But mostly, it was a day of expectations and hopes dashed. I would get my hopes up because he said he may or may not have something planned. He never did. I would plan things. He'd complain about them. I think you can tell how Valentine's Day is going to go by a man treats you the rest of the year. He was selfish and unromantic. Why on earth did think that would change just because it was Valentine's Day? Or our anniversary for that matter? Oh sure, we went on dates. Once or twice a year. Always with a stipulation though.. "Lose 5 pounds and I'll take you out". Ahh, gotta love conditional love. Makes you feel all warm and fuzzy, doesn't it?
So, why do I hide all the Valentine's stuff on facebook? Not because I'm jealous(okay, maybe teensy bit). Not because I think it's cheesy or I'm bitter or anything. It's because it's a reminder of what I have never had. A reminder of the love that wasn't shown to me, on pretty much any day of the year. It's a reminder of how hurt I felt when I was rejected so much. So, what is Valentine's Day to me? A crappy day of watching other men show the women they love how much they love them in a cute romantic way.